So I’m a lot nervous sharing this image… I’m a little nervous to share my story… but I need to share because THIS is exactly why I don’t post pictures on Denimology that often. I’ve been scolded and chastised for not appearing on my blog more. I just thought no one would be interested in seeing me wearing jeans because I was not skinny and “perfect sized”
Since I was 12 I have suffered from major issues with food. I’ve been every weight between 126 and 191. I put myself in the hospital by neglecting my body in many damaging ways. I was damaging my kidneys and I dealt with kidney failure. I was so sick that I took about a month off from Denimology one August. After that I decided I needed to get healthy. Getting healthy is hard work. I wasn’t very successful. I gained a lot of weight and hid in my house hating myself, loathing myself.
I thought a tummy tuck would fix me. I’d wanted one for ages so I got one (hence my gigantic scar)! April will be a year since I got it. At first, it did make me feel better but within a month I was back to hating myself and I actually started GAINING even more weight.
I had to do something so I started going to the gym and a friend of mine asked me to join her in a weight loss challenge. Well I did and it was a wonderful decision! Yesterday was our final weigh in and we won the contest! I lost 19.6 pounds and 4 inches off of my waist. My muscles are definitely defined now.
I now eat clean, take to high intensity cardio classes each week, lift weight 4 – 5 days a week and run 5 days a week. I am learning my own self worth. I am learning how to love me just the way I am. Now I am hoping to shimmy into some of these jeans the brands send us so I may review them for you!
Even though I am not a size 2, I am proud of myself. It’s the first time in my life I have lost weight in a healthy, self respecting way. That’s really something to feel wonderful about if you ask me! 🙂